I’m finding myself in a sad place right now. As I have worked to learn new coping skills, I have also worked to purge negative relationships from my life. I haven’t let down my defenses, so I haven’t developed new healthier relationships. This leaves me in a state of loneliness.
I realize that my previous relationships were based upon being needed rather than wanted. This is the enabler role I learned as a child. Now that I don’t want to start a relationship off with a “need”, I am finding that I feel neither needed nor wanted. That’s a pretty lonely place to be in. Ironically, I rediscovered the tidbits below.
- If there is one thing about which you are not in control, it’s who loves you, stays with you, gets ill, or leaves you.
- When a heart is doing what it’s supposed to be doing, it holds nothing back. And sometimes it gets broken.
- If our hearts are closed because we don’t want to suffer, they won’t be open enough to recognize the joy as it flies by.
My heart is broken, for a number of reasons, and I don’t quite know how to put it back together.
I can sympathize with your heart. Hang in there, you can make it through.